Almost Legal

So its my very last day of being 17 and I'm not really sure that its been a very good day. Its been long and frustrating and a little heart wrenching and a lot upsetting. I'm ready for it to be over but at the same time I'm not sure that I want tomorrow to come. This is my last official day of being a kid. Sure, not much will change tomorrow but I'm not sure how much I like the idea of having to take responsibility and grow up and be an adult. Life is complicated and everyone keeps telling me that it just get less and less simple as it goes on. I think I'd rather get younger than get older. I miss how long days used to seem when I was five and how hot the summer was when I was eight and best friends were best friends no matter what when I was eleven. But I think the two things I miss the most are naps and not having a care in the world. There was always too much time to sleep and no college, no guys, no worries looming over my head. Now that I think about it, I really really miss my mom forcing me to go take a nap after lunch. Back then, it was such a bummer having to go pretend like I was sleeping when all I wanted to do was go play outside. I miss childhood. And even though I'm not 18 yet, childhood is gone already. There is no way to go and get it back. I'll never play with Barbies in the swimming pool or get away with throwing a temper tantrum in the grocery store. That part of my life is gone and in its place is a scary, frustrating, complicated life. Don't get me wrong, I'm sure its great but I'm not sure I'm ready to find out. In fact, I'm really not sure about a lot of things right now. But I guess tomorrow is going to come whether I like it or not. I have no choice but to face it and learn, however slowly, to enjoy it.