Daily Routines

It seems to me that the everyday sort of days are sometimes the most difficult. I've been sick lately so maybe thats why everything has seemed so ughh lately. Actually, now that I think about it, i wish ughh was an actual feeling cause sometimes thats the only way I can describe whats going on inside. It was eight months ago today that my friend Caleb died. I can't believe its been that long. I miss seeing his VW bus outside his house everyday. The fact that youth and the "prime of life" doesn't stop death really makes me think about life. I wish i lived it a little more to the full. I wish I danced every time I heard music and I wish I could just let go a little more often. Caleb knew how to live. He really did. His death made me realize that sometimes I need to break every daily routine and rule I've set for myself and just live. I want to know life and be known for living. I have a fire in my soul that I need to let burn.